DANYA
The Singaporienne: A Novel

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

9:55 PM
okay, well, here goes.
i worry, i know.
i complain, i know. i try to keep within my limits, try not to annoy, try to distance.
just want to stop thinking, though i dont even know why and what im thinking about. too paranoid at times, but it'll stop soon, always does.
just phases.
ah well, at least touch is keeping my head straight.
my only simple pleasures right now are in touch, and even that comes with injuries, hahah. havent actually genuinely been happy since like what, i dunno when. but there's been good days so that's awesomepossum, like sunday, the proposal was hilarious.

've been out of the house these past few days, hahah, i love the fact that i have wayy more freedom nowadays, i dont have to lie to my parents every time i go out now. i dont really like staying home nowadays, just keep trying to keep myself busy these past few days, and have at least, some company. i love company, so that is goodiegoodgood. hahah. my dad's bdae was awesomepossum.

stuff to finish:

1. the whole typing thing for my momma

2. clean my room cause i think it reeks of dead bats or something, eugh.

3. play hard

4. have a couple of hours of pampering to myself, cause i absolutely love to pamper myself. the whole works, and by that, i mean, the jacuzzi upstairs, and then a warm shower in my mum's room (that shower is seriously awesomee) and creams, and hair treatments, and my own facial, and then just stone and sleep. the only thing that would make it even better would be a like fulll body massage and a mani AND pedi. hahahah, im smiling to myself already. gosh, sounds soo goood, hahah. heehee, i know everyone else would have gone through worse than me and need to be pampered, but it's so awesome to just think about it, hahaha.

5. do something about my body because i am really blubbery nowadays, gotta stop all that nonsense food. i dont even like what im eating sometimes, all i want to do is just have a taste and fill my mouth, feel like a pig sometimes, hahah. ah well

so yeah,
all i gotta do is keep my head straight,
and learn to live. that's aint so hard, right?
smilesmile :D yayyy.