DANYA
The Singaporienne: A Novel

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

7:00 PM
call me over-sensitive but i dont think ill ever forget what happened today till ive accomplished what i want to do. those same few words have been ringing in my head and i cant get it out of my head. i dont resent whoever who said it, but i resent every bit of what was said.
give it two months and ill prove myself right. it's not self-pity, because i know there are those who've gone through worse, but i know i wont forgive myself if i dont go through with this. so heads up if i go crazy, irrational and unbelieveably un-danya because it's not over till im happy with who i am and how i look. it's not over yet.
it's not superficiality when i want to look and feel good. besides, isnt that that everyone wants?
give it two weeks, i want to change. and i do kinda agree with what was said today anw, so yeah. thank you, though you not gonna be reading this, though you dont know how hard your words hit me.
im gonna do this. and im gonna be happyy (: