DANYA
The Singaporienne: A Novel

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

4:13 PM heya, my life is a mess and i'm fixing it up bit by bit, slowly picking up those microscopic pieces.. everything's fine and i'm not suicidal for your information. today, i went to mac's at potong pasir (i didn't know there was one there in the first place) with komathi. she just talked a lot and crapped around while i listened. it feels great to actually listen to someone talk instead of the other way round, come to think of it, it's better cause u can actually relax and reflect on stuff.. then at mac's i saw my cousin walking across the street and he didn't really see me, so yah.. i'm ms. invisible nobody again, right after S and C convinced me that i wasn't, oh well, life's like that.

V.D. is off on some family thingy today so i cudn't talk to him, his mega-rich family brought him to some yacht and they went sailing or something like that... i didn't really get the full details but all i know is that he's enjoying himself and that's good to hear. (: then, when i came home, my parents started lecturing me on RESPONSIBILITY and PUNCTUALITY cos they thought that going out for 2 hours in the early morning is bad and so they lectured (scolded) me for about another 1 hour. I watched the movie, WATER, again, it's so super good. Haven't done any hw, cause today's meant to be my free day, i really needed a break. I found out that my grandma's coming to live with us from now on starting from next month. Bummer. I mean i'd love to have her over and all but this means that i have to give up my ROOM.

my most prized possession, great.. no more privacy, no more freedom, no more independance, no more personal toilet, no more hi-5 set, no more low japanese bed, no more personal full-mirror cupboard. Goodbye to all of them. Hello to my irritating brother next door to my room, his nonsensical crap, him barging into my room, connecting door to my brother's room and the crap family computer and family toilets. Now, my brother can come into my room anytime cause the com is in my room now. Just at the moment when i think everything's gonna get better, it gets worse. great.
Well looking on the bright side, syf gonna be over next tuesday, yay! i also met my cousin on msn today, i haven't seen him for 5 years, so that's a good thing.. life's complicated now and i'm stressed over o'lvls although i'm in sec3.. what's wrong with me...
bleah, i'm gonna give ethel something really special and close to heart, next tuesday (syf day) she's been through a lot with me these few months and she's the best senior in this school and i think she deserves this, so yah. i just hope she treasures it as much i do.. oh well, i talked too much today, gtg
byebye (: