DANYA
The Singaporienne: A Novel

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

10:04 PM hey babe.

you should know by now that i've been stressed and all but that still won't break my spirit. Since ysterday, u weren't yourself, u know what i mean. Once i heard your voice on the phone, i knew something was wrong but i didn't know that it'll be that bad. always remember what E said "if it has'nt killed you, it's just made you stronger." I'm sorry for what i said over the phone today, i really wasn't thinking when i said it, guess i kinda got pissed when everyone thinks i'm invisible. i am nothing without you and u know that, so cheer up and live life to its fullest. u rock. people think they know us, but i don't think they understand whatever's underneath those thick layers of disguise and pretense. i dunno about you, but this is how i feel. they always say it's going to be alright but what do they really know? they just don't know anything much about me, or you. E and K and you understand, but why don't others? they don't know when to leave me alone and when to comfort me. things aren't just the way it used to be. I'm invisible now. people walk past and don't even know they just did, i go out of a room and no one notices, people slam doors in my face not knowing that i'm there. am i that invisible? i'm crying now, but i truly don't know why. it'll pass and time will mend the broken hearts you could have torn apart. soon, syf will be over and we will be laughing at all the stupid stuff we did and we will be laughing at all the problem we used to have. but i hope u'll always rmb that no matter what, i'll always be by your side and will always help. "if it hasn't killed you, it's only made you stronger" so let's persevere on and fight all these obstacles and get over it. then, hopefully, we'll be ok.

- danya